Whatever that means.

So I have decided to withdraw from my entry into the Marines. Some of them are nice people, some of them are just useless imbeciles. Rude, disrespectful miscreants. I'm not saying it is all bad, I do respect that branch of the military, it just isn't what I want. I am considering a more technical branch such as the Air Force, that and I have a few friends that are in. That's always nice, right? I am however still in the process of getting information about them. Figure I will check out the other branches as well.

For now though I have decided to do something at least somewhat beneficial to me, well it is beneficial to other people too, but with my cold logic I could care less. I decided to join the volunteer fire department out here where I live. I figure I get some nifty skills and free training, on top of that I end up helping other people. I figure it is a win/win. I may not care much for people but I'm always willing to help for some idiotic reason.

Last and definitely not least there is a new puppy in the household. Adorable little thing named Kaili. Yes, that is the right spelling. Yes, I know it is weird. She is a malamute husky mix. Has the biggest damn ears (I love the word damn ) and is very well behaved. It took about a day to house break her. How wonderful is that, in all honesty! Maybe I'll see about getting some pictures up somewhere for people to see.

Time to sleep. Goodnight.

I really don't know what I want to do anymore, too much going on as it is. However, I do plan on continuing on improving my art (which I haven't posted out of fear of ridicule, give me time). I'm also thinking about picking up photography as an extra to learn. It seems like it could help me enjoy life a little more, although it will probably take me a ridiculous amount of time to learn. But, first things first. I am suppose to leave later this month for San Diego, yay bootcamp, so I really doubt I'll be around for awhile. Then it's combat training, then my job training. I get to be a mechanic, fun fun! I actually think it might be, I really do love hands on activities. Although, things that go boom are always nice as well. Anyways, I'm just losing my mind right now.

I am as well looking for inspiration for my story as I'm hitting a bit of a dry spell. I'd rather not get too into detail as I'm not very trusting of others. I've got the first part mostly done though. Yay! Umm......I think I'm crazy is the only other thing I have to mention.

Alright, take care ladies and gentleman and I'll post something again eventually.

Stolen from the friend of mine I stole it from, You know who you are

RULES:
1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5.Put this on your journal.

1.If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
"Dammit, I changed again" by the Offspring
[Alrighty Then]

2.How would you describe yourself?
"Stealing Society" by System of a Down
[so true, so true]

3.What do you like in a girl/boy?
"Little Devotional" by Taking Back Sunday
[I'm not so sure that's a good thing, lol]

4.How do you feel today?
"Not all who wander are lost" by Devil Driver
[Of course we're not lost, but we're not found either]

5.What is your life's purpose?
"Water" by Breaking Benjamin
[...........umm, yea.....?]

6.What is your motto?
"Everybody's Fool" by Evanescence
[I'd rather be dead.....]

7.What do your friends think of you?
"Walking in my shoes" by Finger Eleven
[Again, I am utterly lost]

8.What do you think of your parents?
"First Date" by Blink 182
[Well, my father I guess would have stood me up, and my mom is annoying and obsessive. Other than that, this one is really f***** up.....]

9.What do you think about very often?
"Anthem" by Blink 182
[Re-define, please?]

10.What is 2 + 2?
"Pity" by Drowning Pool
[The truth has been revealed!!!]

11.What do you think of your best friend?
"Geek Stink Breath" by Green Day
[It's almost true, he is a computer geek, haha!!]

12.What do you think of the person you like?
"Landslide" by AC/DC
[I've never listened to this song but i have it on here.....just wonderful.....]

13.What is your life story?
"Frantic" by Metallica
[again, so true, so true]

14.What do you want to be when you grow up?
"Dead and Broken" by Godsmack
[Well, I'm not sure about this one, but umm, yea?]

15.What do you think of when you see the person you like?
"Blurry" by Puddle of Mudd
[Precisely, absolutely ridiculous, but true.]

16.What will you dance to at your wedding?
"Anticipation" by Chevelle
[Umm, what?]

17.What will they play at your funeral?
"Believer" by Ozzy Osbourne
[umm.....wonderful?]

18.What is your hobby/interest?
"Kool-aid" by Bowling for Soup
[at least it is normally taste and thirst-quenching]

19.What is your biggest fear?
"Here to Stay" by Korn
[Actually, I'd love to be immortal, I'd enjoy it for a little while]

20.What is your biggest secret?
"Under my Skin" by Mudvayne
[Skin, muscle, blood, yum.....]

21.What do you think of your friends?
"Belgium" Bowling for Soup
[What!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?]

22.What will you post this as?
"December" by Static-X
[This isn't where I parked my car!]

It's a wonder of joy and sadness when something you like comes to mind in the words to be written. But when you go to write what has come to mind it leaves as quick as it came. Kinda like when you build a castle from the sand and some mean kid comes over and destroys in a split second. It pisses me off. A lot. Really a lot a lot!! Then when you have the paper to be written on after the words of mind come to you you never get those words to come..... ever..... So I came up with a solution, finally. My phone has a built in microphone recording device, so now whenever I start going on and on with something from the mind to be put to paper I just speak into my phone and keep it going and it works out fine. till I have to put it to paper because then it just takes forever and then it pisses me off. But at least this way I still have the words that came to the mind. Hopefully I might be able to get some stuff posted too. Cause I found me some pictures of old and these new words that came to me. So I can type the words and post the pictures and then there is more to this than just 2 poems of not so spectacularly sucky-ness. Yes, sucky.....ness..... Like an industrial vacuum kind of sucky. The kind that can pull the hair out of your head. Okay, that's pushing the crazy speakings. Disappear time. I'm off to do stuff of the me not telling you what.

It is so cooooooool!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think, not as cool as the leprechauns of chewy chewy goodness. You sick animals. Animals? What? Okay, but more pointacularly now. The rusted gears of logic and psychosis have started to turn, wheels of the critters running around have begun to spin. I can see the world again beyond my own mind. Practically impractical with a sense of loss, nothing less expected from something I don't know. Earlier today I watched as someone made spelling mistake after spelling mistake and it was getting on my nerves. But I guess that was more random than I thought it might not be. But now that the gears turn and I should be able to get things done that need to be done more than other things that still need to be done. And this is why I don't do journal entries. Hope you enjoyed wasting your time.